25th July 2025 - The Hardest Part of Embodying My Design

Hello, beautiful souls and welcome to today's contemplation. I was recently asked what was the hardest part of my human design to really fully embody, and I want to say one thing first, which is that just because your human design is who you were always designed to be, doesn't mean that it's going to be easy to embody those energies in the beginning. And the reason for this is, is that we have already built up so many layers of conditioning over who we were always designed to be because we weren't allowed to be that, or we weren't aware that that was our natural way of being, that it was okay to be ours. And because of the experiences that we've had, and we've had these conversations before, you know how conditioning is built up in your life. That to get back to that core essence of ourselves can take time because it's an unlearning.

(01:10)
We have to unlearn aspects that are the not self that we've started to identify with as the self. So for me, the hardest part of my design has been my digestion. And so I am a consecutive digestion human design. And this means that for both food and information and anything else that I take in sensory, that I process is best done one thing at a time in its simplest rawest form. And so I'm going to look at information first. Where this has been the biggest struggle for me with information has been around my children because they all want to speak to me at once, and they all have something important to say and they all want to share, and they like to talk over the top of each other. And I literally cannot, in all parts of my body, I can feel how frustrated I get, how quickly I get dysregulated, how confused I become, how I'm not really able to listen to anyone or anything.

(02:27)
And not only just that, but even if it's one-to-one in a room, if there is a TV on, or sometimes my children will come and speak to me, but they've still got their tablet running with something that they're playing. Or my middle son at the moment loves calling one of his best friends and they chat for hours, but he'll come and ask me something and his best friend will be chatting on the other side of the phone. And I cannot focus. I cannot take in what's being said to me. I literally can't. This is the same actually at networking events. There's loads of people talking at once. I can be trying to focus in on a one-to-one conversation, but I can hear all of the noise around me. And so I've always said that I'm noise sensitive. Well, this is literally part of my design is that I need to be able to take stuff in one thing at a time.

(03:18)
And the hardest part of embodying this is, as you can see, I have a clear awareness of this. So when I'm working, I want to work by myself. Zero interruptions, full focused. This is full left facing arrows style focused structure in my zone. And the hardest aspect isn't the awareness of that. And it isn't the being able to honor it for myself, but it's getting my children to honor it. It's been very hard and continues to be a challenge, and I find myself having to say them again, wait, stop a minute, one at a time, you first. And so I literally have to direct them on. Look, when one of you is talking to me, just wait a moment, let that person finish. Then I can answer them, and then I can give you my full attention. And they don't always get it, and I'm constantly repeating it.

(04:19)
So for me, on a information intake level that's been a challenge, is communicating to other people how they can best communicate with me so they get the best out of me and what they desire from me in that moment. Again, this comes back to what serves you, serves everyone else around you. And in this instance, it is so true. The other part of digestion that's been very, very hard for me is around food. And again, I still feel like this is an area that I'm working on because I love my food combos. I love complicated meals, and I love takeaways, and I love, I also have allergies to certain fruits, which means that there are, and nuts, which means there are limited raw foods that I can actually eat, although that's a story that I keep telling myself because there's actually lots of raw foods that I can eat that I don't always eat, but also that consecutive.

(05:21)
So for example, if you're having a meal, you want to make it simple as possible with the least processing as possible, think kind of caveman diet, and then eat one aspect at a time. So one item at a time. So that would look like eating all of the potatoes on your plate first and then moving on to whatever veg you've got there. And then moving on to the meat that you've got there one thing at a time until it's gone. And then moving on to the next thing. And I remember very, very clearly as a child doing this and it being commented on, so as a child, I always used to leave my favorite thing on the plate till last and I would eat in consecutive order. And it was pulled up on so much like, why do you always leave that till last? And mom would say, eat all of your food.

(06:13)
Don't leave that thing on your plate. Or there were very certain processed foods that I wouldn't naturally gravitate towards. And so I remember, this is a fun fact. I used to love eating baked beans, and I wouldn't heat them up. Oh my gosh, I know I'm going to grow some of you out right now, but I wouldn't heat them up. I used to love eating baked beans straight out of the can without heating them up, without doing anything to them. And it's just my most favorite thing as a teenager, I would still do it today, I don't, but I would still happily devour a tin of cold baked beans today, and if that is making you feel any way queasy, I apologize right now. So that as growing up was something I naturally did. And then as I got older, I got more experimental with food and started enjoying more foods and also carried on that, okay, people are watching me leave stuff on my plate in this order kind of thing.

(07:14)
I probably shouldn't do that. And so I carried that conditioning around with me. And so I am finding it quite a struggle to go back to consecutive eating. I'm getting better and better at it. And also, I find that a challenge when it comes to family meal times, because I don't want to have all of my stuff mixed together. I want it cooked separately, or I want something completely different, which means cooking multiple meals and that kind of thing. So they are some of my, that probably is the biggest struggle with embodying my human design, which I'm working on. So as you get deeper and deeper into your design, I think starting with type strategy and authority feels quite easy in many aspects because it is kind of like permission to go your own way, to choose your own path, to take your sovereignty back.

(08:06)
But there are other aspects of your design that may not feel like they come naturally to you. The other thing that I'd bring awareness to is that the aspects of your design that are on your design side of your chart, or also known as the unconscious side of your chart, they may be things that you do unconsciously already, but they also may be the hardest things to amplify and to expand within you because you don't always have conscious awareness of where they sit. So the more awareness that you can build around the design side of your chart and where you are leaning into those energies, the more you can expand those and amplify those, the more you can lean into the embodiment of those as well. So yeah, hope that provides you with some insights. If you have any questions around digestion or determination or a part of your design that you are finding a struggle to embody, then please ask them inside the Academy Forum.